Why do they tell you to “keep coming back?”
It’s been 30 days. One month. 720 consecutive hours… that you’ve remained clean.
And by now you officially have so many meetings and self-help books under your belt that you waking yourself up in the middle of the night, reciting the opening program literature betwixt Buddhist quotes. Why the hell do you need to “keep coming back” now? Isn’t it stuck in there enough?
Not necessarily, says science.
You see, while the step programs will let you know straight away that they’re “spiritual, not religious”, we can’t avoid the basic biology behind it. I mean, they can, ‘cause it’s not their job to teach you brain science (plus you’d probably get bored). All you need to know is the old idiom “it works if you work it”. But if you’re naturally curious and intrinsically critical like I am, you probably have a million and one questions. Sure, you might remain quiet about them in a meeting – for the sake of seeming to seek out “similarities; not differences”, but the two year old within you batters you with the monosyllabic “Why? Why? But… WHY?” And she won’t be quieted until you get home and do some Googling yourself. Which is exactly what I did on one of those many sleepless nights, early on, when I was hoping to find something scientific to prove this was all one big stream of dog diarrhea and I shouldn’t be there. Unfortunately for my truculent ego terrified of change, I was gonna be disappointed.
What I found, early on in recovery, was a bit of neuro-scientific fact called neuroplasticity:
Neuroplasticity, also known as brain plasticity, is an umbrella term that encompasses both synaptic plasticity and non-synaptic plasticity—it refers to changes in neural pathways and synapses due to changes in behavior, environment, neural processes, thinking, and emotions – as well as to changes resulting from bodily.
Yes. Anything you do – any habit – literally, physically changes your brain.
You could spend those three months playing piano or learning Spanish instead, and you know what? Well, you’d get really good at bellowing out Enrique Iglesias’s “Hero” in his native tongue while plunking out the accompanying chords (couldn’t hurt on the dating scene, either, IMHO). But, also, a brain-o-gram (very medical term) would show structural changes… just like it would after several months of AA or NA meetings (granted – maybe different looking in that different parts are being activated – but visibly altered in both situations nonetheless). Whatever you repeat, you become better at – whether it’s laudable or loathsome. You are your habits. But you can change your habits. Thus, you can change who you are.
And that’s because of the nature of neuroplasticity.
If you repeat taking drugs and drinking, you get very skilled at exactly that (until your neurological system fails you and you get the shakes while try’na fill your goblet, of course). Do you wanna get better at remaining clean? Then you stay clean one day at a time. And if you wanna get better at remaining clean without resenting it, life, and everyone in it? Then you stay clean, one day at a time, hang around people who’ve been both sober and serene, and do what they do until all the little bridges in your brain link up just right and you realize you’re manifesting the same kinda life yourself. That may be one of the most important things to remember if you believe only what you see. It’s not just an idea, this neuroplasticity. It’s a physical thing happening in your head’s organ that you just can’t see ’cause you’re eyes can’t process what’s directly behind ’em (but you can look at plenty of other people’s MRI readouts to know it’s true).
And how long’s that take to accomplish? Well, there’s some argument about it. Some have claimed it takes as little as 21 days. Others say it takes at least 66. Some even claim it takes up to 200. Now, that’s a pretty wide range. But when it comes to a habit that had the help of actual chemicals changing your skull’s contents versus one generated by mere thoughts? Well, ain’t nobody got time to say they ain’t got time to invest in renovating that. Which is why you’ll hear “keep coming back” whether you’ve got 90 days or 90 years.
But there’s a reason they do key tag milestones for the first three you survive clean.
Science, bishes.